Kelly Clarkson after winning American Idol: "I Hated My Life"

Kelly Clarkson, American Idol numero uno and Duets star,  confessed to Redbook magazine that she was miserable and hated her life for the first four years after she won the show.

Talking to Redbook magazine, she said: “I’m going to be completely honest — I had no one looking out for me. They were looking out for the show, and it was horrible." Kelly, who contemplated quitting the music industry on several occasions continued: “I was 19 years old. I was smart enough to know that it wasn’t about me, but that didn’t make it any easier. I’m all cried out about it, but my first four years, I hated my life; I almost quit a dozen times.”

But on the bright side, she says she has found love and happiness with her current boyfriend Brandon Blackstock, who also happens to be her manager's son.

Where’s the kick in the ass? I told my assistant that today,” she said. “I said, ‘I’m just waiting for something to blow up.’ She said, ‘No, that’s what happiness is.’ I’m like, maybe I’ve never been happy! Because Brandon does — he makes me happy. "

She goes comments about her recent weight loss and what she did to lose the lbs.

Of her recent weight loss, and training regime she said: “I do cardio. I run. I strength-train using my own body weight. I don’t like free weights, because I build muscle easily.

Frankly, I'm happy Ms. Clarkson is finally loving her life and career. Go Kelly!

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